salam..
honestly, i love being busy. i love juggling between different responsibilities and playing different roles all at the same time.
i love how one minute i am doing my programming homework and the next, im sending my bills to MARA, right afterwards, im updating my mom's website, and now moving on to doing social psych homework. all of which is done while i am working at the moment. haha
call me eccentric. but i love being busy. i love having no time off in the day, and getting back home at 9 o'clock.
it makes me feel, productive. useful.
i think the worst days of my life would be when i am at home, doing nothing.
i just hate that feeling of being useless.
i cant imagine retiring from work. even if i do retire, i'd probably still work. haha hope that makes sense.
all i need is a day off in a week, and the rest of the night to get some rest and do a little self-checking with Allah and with myself.
i fell sick last week and had a massive stomachache for two days.
it was so intense that it woke me up from sleep, and i lost 2kg from that. haha
i can say that i was somewhat paralyzed from that pain, it hurt so bad that i just couldnt do anything.
that was when i realized how much i havent been appreciating the health that Allah has given to me.
truly, only when we lose something do we appreciate it.
moral of the story : appreciate your health and youth. be useful for Allah, for society, for yourself.
make use of the time in the day to be productive. and use the night as a recovery or as a means of obtaining peace.
which reminds me of a talk from bilal assad, dont be a "donkey in the day, and a corpse at night."(he said it in arabic, which sounds way cooler).
basically what it means is, dont just work in the day and then sleep for the rest of the night.
pray, recite, sleep, and wake up for tahajjud
wallahu'alam.. back to work !