so close.

Salam..
for the first time in my life, i cant wait to have a winter break to actually do something productive.
i've been too caught up doing things for school that i'm not doing anything beneficial(in a non-academical sense).

cant wait for the next 5 weeks to end ! :)

just do it ?

salam..

being superbusy here at RPI. i constantly tell myself that i'll do it(whatever 'it' may be) whevener im not busy (ie, maybe next week will be better)

but then i realized, im never gonna be un-busy.
so might as well just do it(whatever 'it' may be) anyways!

:)

4 Weeks

alhamdulillah.. done with 4 credits. another 16 to go to finish Sophomore year.
insyaAllah by early January i'll be in Junior year(credit-wise, that is); one step closer to the end of degree.
time passes by so fast, masyaAllah.

the next 4 weeks, however, is gonna be long and crazy.

as you can see, we've just proposed a project on redesigning a company website along with a database with login features and such. it's due in about 5 weeks. and it's gonna be a first time for me to design a site with such functionality. im only praying the best and hoping to learn a lot from it insyaAllah. :)

if you can spare me a prayer, that'd be great. may Allah bless you. :)

Wishes

Salam..

it's words like these that motivates me to get out of bed in the morning.

may Allah bless him for all his efforts.

effort.

salam..

u dont need more time. just more effort.

Jahiliyah

Salam...

sesungguhnya islam itu datang sebagai cahaya yang menerangi kegelapan jahiliyyah.
jadi jikalau tangan dan kaki kita sama seperti tangan dan kaki mereka yang jahil;
bagaimana hati ini boleh berbeda?

PS: writing this post whilst listening to loud music coming from neighbors partying. may allah distinguish us from the darkness.

'ala kulli hal

salam warahmatullah..

alhamdulillah. tsumma alhamdulillah.
Finally reached the big number 20.

i feel content with myself, i feel content with my life, i feel content with the people around me, and i feel content with my past.

with all the hardships that we go through, it makes us stronger, and we learn from it.
i'd have nothing to say but alhamdulillah.

alhamdulillah for giving me guidance. for showing me what is right and what is wrong.
alhamdulillah for my parents. for if i was born in another family, my life would be totally different.
thank you mom. if there's one person that deserves to be in heaven, it'd be you. for all the advice that you gave, the principles that you instilled on me, i pray that there's no lower reward than jannah.

thank you dad, even if you died 10 years ago, the thought of you and all the things that you have contributed for your country, your family and for everybody's future has pushed me to my limits. you made me think that nothing is impossible.

last of all, i'd say alhamdulillahi 'ala kulli hal..

Dont Know

salam..

i spent a majority of my life having really high perception on myself over other people.

call me narcissistic, but im just being honest.

i am just really comfortable with myself and i feel really confident.

but when I started to get to know my classmates, co-workers and acquaintances at RPI, i know where i belong on the totem pole. my feet are finally grounded again.

it's been almost 3 weeks and i havent received any job offers from companies at the career fair.

seeing people walking around campus in suits going for interviews really do make me feel like i dont have a chance.

well honestly i didnt plan on getting an internship but somehow something just pushed me to apply.(i honestly dont know why).

i figured that i'd give it a shot and see how it goes.

but it turns out that it is tougher than i thought; the wait is killing me!

if the companies would just call and tell me that i was rejected, then i'd be totally fine.

dont keep me waiting, dear companies.

i just spent almost half of today trying to figure out a piece of code and i still cant understand it.

the best part is, the part of code that i was trying to make sense of, is not really the answer to my lab questions, it's just an explanation of how the answer could be obtained.

in a sense, an answer to get an answer. (im not making sense, am i?)

it's really stressful to be the only one taking some of the courses that im taking right now.

but you know what? what doesnt kill you makes you stronger.

i am currently abstaining myself from any sort of human dependency; let it be for support, or for love.

because at the end of the day, it does make you a stronger person. well at least i hope so.

brain is about to explode because of all this but i am glad that Allah is always with me when i wake up in the morning and when i shut my eyes at night.

we should all train ourselves to rely on no one but Allah.

the road to righteousness is not easy, but it's one beautiful ride if you're with Allah.

i shall sleep now. tomorrow shall be a crazier day. and i shall strive my best insyaAllah

more of a reminder to myself, then everyone else: dont worry about the results. just focus on the means.

wallahualam..

salam warahmatullah..

PS : tomorrow's first day of zulhijjah! the first ten days of zulhijjah is aweehsoomeee (do google if you do not know what i mean) =D

College Really Do Suck

salam..
here's the truth.
i may seem like a guy who knows what he's doing, where he's going, how he's gonna get there, and can put up a smile almost all the time,
but that doesnt mean life is all rainbows for me.
im sweating my brains out just to PASS algorithms this year, i've spent countless of times having bad time management, and i've probably regretted most of my decisions at the end of any day (like how i fell asleep after subuh today)

what im trying to say is, everyone is going through the same crazy stuff that ur going through, they just choose not to project the negativity to the rest of the world. people put up a smile not because they're hypocrites, but because a smile(fake or not) really does make you forget about ur problems for awhile and let you live the moment.

just because we have problems, it doesnt mean we should give up. just remember, if your parents or grandparents or great grandparents have made it through life, raised kids (and grandkids), and provide food on your table so that you can live and breathe the air ur breathing right now.
we are the hopes of our fathers and our grandfathers. imagine the hopes that your father have on you the moment u were born; how any father would want nothing but the best for his kids.

now that you're all grown up, it's time to give back nothing but the best for YOUR father. and to YOUR future kids
problems will continue to exist in life, the difference is, whether YOU choose to run away from it, or face it like a MAN (or woman). running away from problems is only going to lead to you having more and more problems. so why not get over the hurdle and dash to the finishing line?

remember, in genetic terms, every born child has a better aptitude than both their parents combined.
if they made it through, why not you ?

Allah has made it such that we are all able to carry the burden that we face.
if you have a huge burden that you have to carry, it means that Allah has made it such that you are stronger than that.
Allah is fair. Put your faith in Him and strive the best that you can for His sake.
because he has given you that warm comforter that you sleep in, the pair of shoes that you wear to class, and that expensive laptop that you are using to read this post.
you owe it to the things that he has given to you, to work for His cause.

so live the moment(im not asking you to party), and focus on what you can do now. forget about the past because its not coming back, put aside your future because its not here yet. focus on what you can do NOW(after reading this post).

"if you have warm fresh bread today, does yesterday's rotten bread, and tomorrow's anticipated bread matter?" - la tahzan (dont be sad)

you have no idea how much this post is directed to me more than to the rest of you.

wallahu'alam..

resume

salaam.. so i spent the last two weeks preparing my resume, updating it and changing it over and over again until i got it right. i realized that resume writing is not something easy as writing an essay. and i've been trying to find resumes online but they're just so hard to get. especially the good ones.

i've censored all the sensitive infos and left all the parts that i dont mind showing to public eye.

i've made two resumes: the second one is the one that i sent to employers in the US, and the first is made for malaysian employers. you can see slight changes that i did to suit different cultural aspects.

so here's my resume:

note: a resume is made to make you sound awesome. i am not as good as what my resume says. haha

hope it helps! salaam..